40 Years of Service
Tell me more about yourself?
I am a submissive German gay slave who is very much into serving Superiors, being humiliated, protocol, and pain. I am very happy to be used and to improve my slave skills through training and practice. I serve online, over distance, and in real-life meetings.
When did you first know that you were born to submit?
At the age of 17, I became aware of a gay magazine in a train station kiosk (this was in the 70s, and there was no internet). An ad for a gay SM magazine convinced me to buy it. Among other things, there were advertisements, and I was soon able to visit a Master nearby. After this first SM experience, I knew I was born as a slave.
Was there a key moment in your younger life that confirmed your truth?
Even though I never had any doubts since then, it was confirmed because every time I was tortured, I got an erection. Finally, I participated in a long SM gay weekend that I enjoyed very much.
Were there Superiors in your life that you looked up to or influenced you in your journey?
Only many of my Masters and Sirs—not any Superior that is known outside the gay SM community.
Tell me about the first time you served a Superior sexually?
As soon as I entered the Master’s flat, I had to undress completely and was collared and cuffed. Although there wasn’t a specific safe word, the Master told me to inform him if I didn’t feel comfortable. Then, I had to lick his boots intensively—high black riding boots. He instructed me how to do it so that he could feel my tongue and so that they were shiny after the service. As I did it incorrectly and needed a lot of instruction, the Master thought it must be punished with the whip. So, I was fixed to his St. Andrew’s cross and enjoyed a long flogging, starting softly, but the Master continuously increased the intensity, and in the end, it was quite intense. Finally, he fixed me over a bench and fucked me. Even though his quite long cock was not very thick, and he fucked me carefully, I wasn’t able to relax and enjoy the fuck. I visited him frequently afterward.
How did you feel as you were serving?
Licking his boots was extremely exciting for me, and it felt natural. When the Master whipped me for my imperfections, I thought it was right to be punished for inadequate service. I thought I would learn to serve quickly with this punishment and never provoked any whipping since then, but I am still addicted to corporal punishment. I didn’t like being fucked at all, but right from the beginning, I was convinced that it was the Master’s right to fuck a slave whenever he wanted, and I was looking for training.
Did these feelings change as you reflected on the experience over time?
Only a little, as I think it is okay for a slave to have limits and for those limits to be accepted by Superiors. Nevertheless, I completely accept if a Superior doesn’t show any consideration, but today I am self-confident enough to serve other Superiors. I still think that a Master has the right to fuck an inferior when and wherever he wants, and I do daily training to be able to enjoy those fucks.
Has that first experience influenced how you serve today, and how do you serve today?
Yes, indeed! I learned that licking boots (or sneakers today) is a strong sign of submission. If I see a Superior that attracts me in a bar or at an event, I just get on my knees and lick his boots. Even if he doesn’t use me further, I feel satisfied. Today, I am addicted to flogging, spanking, whipping, and even serious bastinado for punishment, for his and his friends’ entertainment, for making sure the slave knows his place and who is in charge, as well as for a Superior to show me his deep sympathy for me as a slave.
What has been the most significant moment of your service journey, and how has it changed your view of the world?
I could never have imagined paying to be used as a slave, but I was fascinated by a Master’s internet homepage, and I wanted to serve him. As there was no exception to serving him as a cash slave, we started a journey of an SM relationship with a combination of paying and being used, paying and being punished for misbehavior and failures, and finally, paying for any attention the slave gets.
How important have Sirs or Masters been in supporting you through your journey?
Many of the Superiors I served were very important for my journey, as each of them has different protocols, needs, and wishes. Moreover, they are into different SM practices, and they do the same practices in different ways. There is still much to explore in this changing SM world with new toys, remote and over-distance control of toys, and new slave services, even though I have been serving Superiors for almost 40 years.
If you were to go back to your first experience in service, what advice would you give your younger self?
Try everything, but not all at once! You’ll learn from every experience—even from the bad ones, as long as it doesn’t affect your health (mentally and physically). Be open to new experiences and allow yourself to go slightly over your limits to improve your capabilities. Watch others and learn from them! The world of SM and how inferiors serve a Superior is full of excitement, satisfaction, and surprises, and is just wonderful!
